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Comeback
It amazes me that I haven’t posted for like 2 weeks and yet I’ve consistently had a handful of views each day. Thought that was pretty cool.
Life has been pretty full on. I’m going to attempt to do an update going back to when I moved out. I wonder if there is a word limit… It’s going to be one big assed post!!!
My new place: Okay so I got a bed, woot. And I have all my stuff here. It’s been somewhat of an interesting experience so far. I’m dangerously close to town. So should I want to go to the supermarket for a bag of chips, i can just walk there. Maccas 24hour drive thru is a small drive away. A taxi to town only costs $6ish and it’s an easy walk as long as it doesn’t rain. Our place is also just around the corner from A’s. I’ll get to “A” in a sec..
Work has been good. I’ve had two 14+ hour weeks, and the week just gone I did 13 hours over 3 days and that was without working Tuesday..
I’m getting better at everything. I have an apron now! they’re fun. handy pocket on the front. Getting to know everyone better. I’ve seen two of the guys from work in town. It was funny as. Jess left. Which made me kinda sad. But we’ve been hanging out and drinking and going to Town so it’s allll good.
Alcohol: I’ve been drinking far too much. I can admit it. Lol. I’ve been going to town too much. I’ve been staying up too late after town.
Sleep: Yeahh that still hates me.
V shots: are my friends.
I am: kind of hungover and not really in the mood for this..
I’ll finish it when I come home after work. I’m not going out tonight. Might have a couple of quiet drinks, but I’m NOT going out. I’m having coffee with mum tomorrow so can’t show up hungover hahahah.
A New Beginning
Today, I am moving out.
It will not be official til saturday, which is when I get my bed (beka’s king single) and so will actually have a bed there. At Beka’s. Which is where I’m moving too.
I’m taking as much of my stuff as I can fit in my car over in the afternoon. I went on this huge packing spree getting stuff out of cupboards and draws all over the house and my mum said either one of two things everytime I looked in another place. Either a) you can’t take that or b) you don’t need to take everything, it’s not like you’re never coming back.
a) everything she said that about, she had bought for me, and so I sillily thought that meant it was mine. But no, it was for me to use, or for my room. I’m not allowed to take my bed. I’m not allowed to take my mirror. I can’t take my black blanket WHICH SHE GAVE ME. Is, here I bought this for you, not giving me possesion? Well possesion is nine tenths of the law so I’m taking at least my black blanket anyway. Hehe.
I also managed to convince her to let me take my washing basket, which I swapped with my sister so now I have a pink plastic washing basket. My sister was sitting in my room watching me pack my stuff which was amusing because I was offering her all this crap I didn’t want. Then I cleaned out my bottom draw and “oh it’s my.. nevermind” luckily it was in a bag, I pulled out my pipe, and then a box “what’s this..?” OH FUCK that was what was meant to be used with the pipe and didn’t all get used… HAHAHA almost got busted by my sister. Luckily she didn’t see!
Anyway, I’ve packed up everything but my clothes which I’ll do tomorrow after I get dressed. And some hats and stuff off my wall. And my shoes.
So what spurred this on? Well basically I’m sick of coming home and feeling crap only to go back to beka’s and work and have heaps of fun then come back home and downbuzz. It’s just not much fun. At beka’s there is no one telling me not to share my opinions and thoughts. Okay so beka tells me to shut up all the time, as I do to her, but it’s in good fun, it’s not seriously a “i don’t care” at all. Well I hope not haha. Nah. And living in both places is hard cause I kept losing track of my clothes haha.
And financially, I should be sweet. I think I’ll be getting about 14hours at work a week, if things stay the same, hopefully we get busier though. So thats about $140 in wages, at the very least it should only go down to $80. My student allowance will go up to $72-ish. And when I get my shit together and go to the doc to get a disability allowance form signed and do that, I should get about $50 a week from WINZ for being ceoliac. And having said all that, Beka doesn’t care about rent. She’s just happy to have company, I think, and because I’m gonna pay half of internet and phone, and we’re also going to buy an xbox 360 elite bundle with Halo ODST or something. Gonna chuck it on a credit account but shhh. Oh and I’ll chip in for power too. And food. So I think we worked out if I pay like $50ish for phone and power then I can’t see me spending anymore than that again on food each week, so I’ll be sussed. And Beka’s said she’ll help out if she can if I really need it. But I’m hoping I can go to my parents if I needs to. Even though my mum has pretty much said I”ll have to become self sufficient if I move out blah blah.
But fuck, if it fails and I end up poor and can’t stay living there, I’ll just come back home. They can’t say no. Can they?
20/20 LARP show is on tonight wee! Saw the trailer for it, funnnny. Though they took a comment out of context and so it’s a bit urrmm as to whether they’ll put it into context or not..
Ooh and I got my chimera photos today! My mum looked at them and says, you look awful in these. Oh jees thanks a bunch. Even though she said that was what I was aiming for wasn’t it? Well, pale yes, awful, no.
Went into forlongs to look at stuff with Beka, was talking to one of the staff there who has known me since I was a baby probably, he was saying how it looked like I’d lost a lot of weight and was looking really slim and I was like aw yay *warm fuzzies* I dunno if I have, I dunno the last time I saw him etc, but was a nice compliment. Of course stupidly I told my mum, and she was pretty much like oh yea right. Then said that I would kknow if I had. But I don’t know. Will weigh myself tomorrow.
Uuuuumm Lion-Bear got unpacked about 5 minutes ago. I started freaking out about moving out. It’s weird, cause I was thinking about how I won’t have my parents, my mum especially, there if I need her, to talk to, or look after me. But then, she’s not there for me now when I need it anyway. Or, well, I don’t let her. I’m not sure. But I’m not even sure which one scares me more. I’m also scared that when I move out they’ll be glad. They’ll be glad they don’t have to worry about me, and won’t have to put up with my attitude and me being mean to my sister, and not cleaning up and all that stuff. I’m scared they won’t miss me. I’m scared I won’t be able to cope living alone. I’m scared that beka will get sick of me. I’m scared it won’t work out. I’m scared it won’t be what I want it to be.
But I’m so excited.
I’ll have the freedom I’ve always wanted. I won’t have to put up with pathetic stupid nonsense. I won’t get at 1am “why are you still awake?!” because more than likely beka will be awake too hahaha. I won’t get in trouble for spending hours on the computer or watching tv. I won’t be made to feel like I’m fat because I eat shit and don’t exercise much. I won’t be made to feel ungrateful all the time, or like I’m a hassle or like I’m clueless. I won’t get nagged about stupid things. Or asked stupid questions. Over and over. Or at least I won’t mind the same. My family are the only ones that ask me stupid questions that make me angry. Lol.
I dunno. I just hope it’ll be cool. I’m sure it will be. I just hope all my shit fits actually!!! hahaha.
Well I might try sleeping, again. It didn’t work well last time. I got tense and tearful thinking too much. But I have lion-bear now. Don’t care how little it makes me sound. I’m growing up. I don’t know that I like it. But I’m taking lion-bear with me. And you can’t do a thing about it.
I can’t wait to start unpacking. Actually I just really want to play xbox. But I have to work first. And I really want to see what they did with the shots and stuff on larp at chimera. I wanna see if I’m in it haha. I kind hope not. But think it might be cool if I was lol. I’m not fussed either way, really. Unless I am in it and I look like a dick and someone recognises me! hahaha. Be funny.
Anyway. Sleep. I will maybe blog tomorrow night or whenever we get the modem and connected up at my new home! (bekas) hehe.
nightnight xo
The Placebo Effect
It’s funny. I’m not sure what I was thinking about. But suddenly I remembered being in the doctor’s office with my mum when I was about 8 or 9. I’d been having chronic stomach aches (later found out it was probably related to being a ceoliac, but was found then by a homeopath to be a build up of ‘toxins’) and had been to the doctor numerous times, was home sick more than I was going to school, blood test after blood test, and still nothing was diagnosed or found to be the problem. And then one doctor visit, the doctor suggested to my mum that pretty much I might be making up. And that in some children’s cases, by prescribing them “fake medicine” like vitamins or sugar pills, that they had believed it would make them better and so they got better. Because it was psychosymatic or whatever. Luckily, my mum didn’t believe I was making it up, though a lot of people thought I was, and tbh I started to wonder myself.
Anyway, just a random memory.
Back.
Am home. Seems that my mum will let me do Plan A. Which unless you’ve read the previous post you won’t know what I’m talking about. Basically, because I’m working tuesday thursday friday and saturday nights, I’m going to “stay” at Beka’s tuesday, come home wednesday, go to work thursday then stay at beka’s till saturday or sunday then home then work tuesday, then to beka’s. And round and round. So I would be semi moved out. But would still officially live at home. And get my parents to buy me groceries. Cause I’m not getting enough hours at work. But hopefully I might be getting some more soon! We’ve been rather busy. I worked till 9 friday and saturday and to 8 thursday I think. (I start at 5). Got paid $26.35 for Tuesday. I think the money gets paid thursday night cause I got the money friday, unless it was just late because it was the first week. That was 2 and a halfish hours work. So this week I’ve already worked 11 hours and I have one more shift before payday. I think. I need to ring studylink and set up a mystudylink account so i can change my income.
I’m not really in the mood for writing. Though i have lots to say. Odd. I’m really tired I think. so briefly. may edit later.
Thursday: Had work thursday night, 5-8pm, went to beka’s and cooked myself dinner (beka was working), watched District 9. About 40mins into the movie Joe showed up. He walked all the way from his house. It’s like at least a 20-30min drive. Took him 7 and a half hours!! Dork. He took the long way to because he went down the wrong road. Anyway that was funny as because he came in and was cripple for the rest of the weekend. Hehe. Anyway. Beka came home and we watched tv and talked and were going to sleep about 2 I think.
Friday: Beka had work at 8, I remember waking up as she was leaving saying goodbye then apparently I went straight back to sleep after she said good bye to me. Went to Valentines for lunch with my nana, mum and sister. Ate too much and made myself feel sick. Lol. I think that’s what everyone does there though. All you can eat buffet. Ews. Then went to the superdupermarket and mummy bought me $55 worth of groceries :D including a new can opener, nice smelling hand soap, butter, cheese and potatoes! Ysee me and joe helped beka make a meal plan so that we would actually eat good. Lol. Anyway then by the time I got back beka was about to finish work so me and joe went and picked her up and we went to the superdupermarket so she could buy the stuff I didn’t get. Then to the alcamahol shop for a bottle of vodka. Smirnoff. Because we didn’t have one of those bottles. Oh and I filled my car right up! (Seriously my online bank statement for the last month shows transactions only for food, alcohol, petrol and a couple of items of clothing hehe) Then I had to go to work. Was on the fryer doing wedges and all that stuff. Finished around 9pm couldn’t be bothered getting a pizza but went to Liquor King which is just down from Hell Pizza hehehe, and bought a 6pk of quickfuck shots. Yum. Was so tired when I got back to Beka’s. Vicki and her boyf were there. I complained and cooked chicken and ate and drank vodka and coke. Brook and Scott came over. Was awkward. I went and had a shower cause I smelt like pizza and wedges and stuff, took a glass of vodka and coke with me haha was finished by the time I got out! Beka did my hair, well pinned my fringe back and put leave in conditioner in it so it’d dry nicely wavey not silly. Then she did my makeup. Twas awesome. More drinking, talking, bit of drama, then kylie drove us to town, not sure why she was there. Oh yeah. Talking to joe. Town was average. Was me, joe, beka and brook. When we got to Bahama Hut we were talking to Andrew. Beka saw one of her marching mates and was all excited about and then Andrew convinced me to go inside with him and dance. But then he said he didn’t dance. But then I caught him dancing. And he said he was wobbling. Hahaha. Got introduced to some of his mates. As Jemima. Of course. Funny shit. Beka found us and we went and danced a bit. Then she tried to steal a drink off Andrew. And failed. I showed her how it was done. I’ma stealth ninja. But then she stole it off me. Haha. I think there was a mouthful left when he got it off her. Night ended weirdly. When we finally got back to Beka’s she was being.. drunk.. and me and joe were trying to get her to go to bed, and failing, anyway just when we thought we’d got somewhere, she took off and did the opposite of what we wanted lol and it was pissing with rain so I wasn’t chasing after her. Decided she could do what she wanted, and we went to sleep. Didn’t think she should have but it’s not like we could stop her, and that’s why we weren’t angry with her, she thought we were cause we were asleep when she got back lol. Hmm.
Mostly just slept, ate toast with homemade garlic butter, felt sick, wasn’t sick thanks to the potato stuff joe cooked for us before we went to sleep, watched tv and tried to feel more awake (by way of a shower) before I had to go to work at 5. Was seriously not working, I felt sick and energyless right up until about 4.30. I got so bored (beka had gone to work and Joe had got a ride home) that I went to the supermarket and got an E2 orange juice drink (in hopes it would replenish some energy) and was at work by 4.40. The drink did help. Nice and sugary. Of course being a saturday there was no traffic so I was there early and I sat in the car till about 10 to then just started work early. Was right on time on thursday – I’d left later than I’d wanted and then there was traffic, I was at the lights at 4.57pm yelling at them to go green haha. On friday night, I’d left the same as I had from beka’s on tuesday, but there was twice as much traffic, and so I was pulling into the carpark outside work at 5.02.. oops, no trouble though thankfully. I did get a shake of the head from Jess though lol. And yeah was on counter last night. That included taking phone orders too. Scary stuff. Was cool though. And I’m pretty sure I didn’t screw anything up. Except one person’s name lol. Names are awful when they don’t make sense pronounciation wise. Haha one guy, when I asked for his name for the order, he was round my age if not younger, says “you just want my name” LOL I was like “oh yeah fully hehe”. Customer service is great like that. You get some real.. interesting people haha. And yeah finished about 9. Drove home, cause I wanted my bed and internet lol.
Got home and the parents had been drinking.. quite a bit I think. Courtney had a friend over and they were on the computer so I just hung out with them while I ate dinner. Stole the computer and mucked around on there for ages. I’m not gonna bitch bout my rents for once. it was shitty, and I kinda wish I hadn’t have come home, but meh. I mean, they asked why I didn’t bring home free pizza, because I couldn’t be bothered making it. They were all jokingly like aw why not you should have. So I said to my mum you try working four hours and see if you still want to make and wait for a pizza. I got a stern look and a ‘don’t you talk to me about working four hours, try working eight hours ra ra ra’ whatever. Just cause your drunk. Grrr. Anyway. not bitching..
And yeah. That is everything in a nutshell since the last time I blogged I think. I don’t know. Haha. Good enough. I’m so tired. I don’t even know if this will make sense and I doubt it’ll be interesting. But I just like writing the stuff I’ve done. Lol.
nightnight
I Can’t Be Who You Are
Where to start.. Seriously. Feels like I haven’t blogged in ages. But has been at least what 3 days? I’m not much in the mood for writing so this will be brief. Or at least I intend it to be but it may end up superlong. You never know. Haha.
Monday was my mum’s birthday. It was also the start of the school holidays so my mum wasn’t working and my sister was home. There lies the start of a bad day.
My dad gave my mum the Mamma Mia dvd, and when I woke up that’s what my mum and sister were watching. I watched the last half of it I think. It’s pretty funny in that ohmygod they just broke out in song and dance sort of way. I would like to watch it again, all the way through, to see how it started.
I was getting annoyed everytime the phone rang because I didn’t want it to be work asking me to go in cause they were busy and all that, even though I really didn’t think they would, but then I realised I had a perfectly good excuse of it being my mum’s birthday and so relaxed a little each time the phone rang haha.
The day started to go bad…
I asked if mum had paid for the Chimera photos cos I couldn’t find the piece of paper I’d written the instrucions on. She said no and had a go at me cause I owed her money and so she said I should pay for them. i had no money! anyway she was going on about the money I owe her, and how I hadn’t paid her last week, and so I gave her practically my last $10 so she couldn’t hold it against me.
My sister was pulling her WOOHOO and SUPERMARKET crap. And I was getting irritated as hell. So I was asking her to stop it. And it wasn’t working. And then she was purposely irritating me. And I was using empty threats. Then I was trying to ignore her. And it wasn’t working. So I opened iTunes, went straight to metal, and cranked it up. Of course she just got louder, so I turned it up louder and I couldn’t hear her anymore. Success! Of course I couldn’t hear my mum either, who was yelling at me to turn it down and put something nicer on. I turned it down however I didn’t change it. My sister continued to be an ass. So i continued to bitch at her. My mum had a psych and told us to stop it and ra ra ra. Guilt trip about it being her birthday. How she should’ve made us go out. I had been going to go out. But stayed cause it was her birthday. So that was a bit of a blow. I was ranting to Beka and she was said I should go stay with her so I decided I’d stay for dinner then drive to beka’s for the night.
Well dinner sucked too. Mum brought up courtney and mine’s fighting and then continued to make me feel like shit.
I went and had a shower and managed to avoid most of the visit from my aunty and uncle. I packed some stuff (very little as I left a whole pile at beka’s last time lol) and said I was going to beka’s for the night.
Mum was being all nice and oh do you have enough petrol/money? here take this (the $10 i gave her!) in case you need it. I was so angry and confused cause she’d gone from one mood to another and ARGH so I just took the money and left.
I was about to cry the whole drive to beka’s. I got to beka’s and she was on the phone, so I put the food i took in the cupboards and fridge and sat down staring at the tv. She got off the phone and asked how I was, told me to come sit on the couch and tell her all about it, cause she knew I’d had a shit day. And I just burst into tears. So I was like crying on her shoulder until I could manage to talk. And even then I don’t think I made much sense, purely because none of it does make sense.
My parents go from one extreme to the other. I’ll be in trouble then I won’t and they’ll act like everything is fine. They’ll say no pay for it yourself then be asking why I didn’t ask for money. Home is now feeling less and less like home. I felt so much better when I was at beka’s. I got home yesterday afternoon and immediately started feeling crap. Home, to me, should be the one place you can be yourself, have your say, be treated fairly no matter what, and feel like you matter. I get along with everyone, I don’t cause trouble and I don’t get into fights and dramas, everywhere but at home. And it sucks.
Tonight I said something. Sarcastically. And I got told “Wasn’t talking to you” and “I didn’t want your opinion” and I was just like yeah well I wanted to give it. Got told that I should sometimes not say things and pretty much yeah we don’t care what you think. It sucks. So bad.
But at least I think mum is considering my plan a. Which is (because I’m only getting 8hours work a week) I will semi move out. Technically living at home but mostly at bekas. My parents will still get there money for me. I will still come home days I’m not working. But tuesday thursday friday saturday nights that I work, I will stay at bekas around those. So like go in monday night come home wednesday, go back thursday come home sunday. But seeing as my parents will still be getting money for me, I reckon I should benefit from that, so included in plan a is that they pay for my groceries each week or give me a certain amount of money each week.
And the reason? because if I drive in most of those nights for work, each shift is only 2 hours, it’s a 60km trip from home to work and back, if I did that 4 days a week that’s a shit load of petrol it doesn’t seem worth it and my mum said she’s not gonna pay for petrol anymore which I don’t understand because they said they would untill i could afford to.
see i don’t understand.
i don’t like it.
well that’s a load of whingey crap.
Joe came over monday night to bekas and we all watched crappy tv, chilled out and had lots of fun. I’ve quite liked hanging out with him again. Me and Beka didn’t go to sleep till after 3am. Stacey was knocking on the door at 10.30 making us get up haha. We went to town to do some stuff, went to the lake and OMG THE SWING STILL HAD MY NAME ON IT! In like year 12, couple of years ago, Dani and I used to always go to the lake and play on the swings. We always had the same swing each so we scratched our names into the bottome of our swings (they’re those black park type ones so just rubber or something) and then ben scratched his on mine and matt on dani’s. then I found out that joe always used my swing so he scratched his name into mine too. So mine has GEMMA written across the majority of it then underneath BEN + JOESEPH. I couldn’t believe it was still there! They obviously haven’t replaced the swings. Well I spose why would they.
Then we mished it to cambridge on a wild goosehunt for beka’s ID but had no luck.
Back to Beka’s and we watched The Ringer. Funny shit.
Had work. Made lots of PIZZA. Got a gluten free pandemonium after my shift and beka and I shared that for dinner. we were craving a drink but were poor untill midnight. so waited and read till midnight then drove to maccas in frankton for frozen coke. the frozen coke machine was BROKEN :( so we went to the 5 cross roads one. They were good. Weather was shit as. Curled up in bed and read till 2. Were meant to be going to sleep but ending up talking crap for aaaages lol.
Not much happened today. I bought two new black singlets for work under my tshirt. We bought scratchies and won nothing. went to telecom store, we’re going to get the total home package with 10gb broadband when I move in WOOT
And yeah then I came home.
Most mentionable thing down the positive side of htings is that I have District 9 to watch hehe. Dad’s workmate downloads movies all the time and took some to work on his external hard drive. He put district 9 onto dad’s flashdrive so I could watch it. Yays. But my laptop doesn’t have an avi file player or the right codecs so I have to wait till the morning to watch it on the computer.
I have work at 5pm tomorrow till 7 unless its busy and get asked to stay longer.
Same on friday and saturday.
Drinks and town on friday.
Hannah’s flatwarming next saturday @ 9. It’s a white party so I need to find white stuff.. Gahh.
Anyway. Bed time.
Night night.
Much The Same As Usual
Much the same as usual is how my friday night went… Beka and I bought 42 Below Passion vodka (nomnom) 2 x 500ml bottles + 2 x 1.5L coke = $60 from Liquorland. Mint! First we had to find a liquorland. I bought it, cause Beka still has no ID, and the guy put a coke and vodka in each bag and handed us one each, we got out of the store and cracked up laughing cause he fully knew I was buying it for both of us. The split transaction on two different cards could have been a clue.. and my “psst beka, which account?” lol. Good times.
Heaps of people had been invited but Joe was the only one that showed up! He had no money for alcohol so we said we would share with him. That meant a trip to the supermarket for more fizzy drink, and 2 bags of frozen chips and some chicken for dinner. Oh and glitter straws! 180 of them in fact.
Now bearing in mind that I had a work thing Saturday night, I didn’t plan to drink too much. But as we started drinking we wondered if we would have enough to last all three of us the night, we decided to be on the safe side and go buy a box of rtds just in case. Well it came to time for drinking games.. About 7pm.. Lol and we decided to use the rtds and not waste the nice tasting vodka. After a couple of rounds of Red, Black, I suggested we play Fish! but instead of Fish, it was Drink!
Go DRINK! The R18 version of Go Fish!
You need: 2+ players, alcohol, a pack of cards
How to Play: Very much the same as Go Fish, the classic children’s card game. Instead of saying “Fish” you say “Drink”. If you have to give someone a card, you drink. If you get a pair, you nominate a drink, if you have more than one pair when you get a pair, you nominate drinks according to the number of pairs you have.
The End Result: A lot of fun, and a lot of drunkeness
We played that game until we were mostly through our box. Then we did drunken things and danced on the coffee table.. Ahem.. At one point Joe tried to push us off, somehow I managed to stay up there, so he decided to just pick me up, take me into Beka’s room (not very far at all haha) and throw me on the bed. I was so shocked and freaking out that he was gonna drop me. And then it was like *thwoof* bed. Lol. Curse being light enough to be lifted and carried like that!
Tegan came over, and we had QuickFucks. I knew it was going to be a bad idea as I could feel my stomach telling me I’d already drunk too much.. I spilled half of my shot and then after doing the other half went and threw up.
We went for a random mission to Frankton, well no, it wasn’t random, we were going there for a certain something.. Took the camera. Some epic photos involving poles, signs, trees, roundabouts, a bakery window and those really blurry ones that only get the top of your head anyway.. lol. Got to Matts place and by then we’d sung a whole heap of songs really badly, seen two cop cars, quoted Charlie goes to Candy Mountain and scared a handful of innocent bystanders.
We invited Matt back to Beka’s after he went and got us what erm we wanted.. But he didn’t have any alcohol so he and Joe walked to countdown to get some. Tegan, Beka and I went back to Beka’s and cooked the other bag of hot chips, and scoffed them down. We had the mega drunken munchies and I had no idea why untill I remember not having eaten since about 11.30am.. Anyway the boys came back and after that we went into a kind of downbuzz*. Various stuff that was happening, Matt was being a dick about the music, about Brook, to Joe, and just in general. Eventually we kicked out of the downbuzz and started drinking again. At some point Tegan called a taxi and went home. Then we got hungry again, so at about 2.30am we were cooking pasta and chicken.. oh man, you should have seen the mess we made! It was really good though! By the time it was cooked I was feeling like crashing, so I was lying on the couch eating my pasta with my legs over Joe who was sitting at the end of the couch. We were all talking and eating and listening to music. I dunno if anyone was still drinking. Then Joe started crashing and was lying on the couch with me. For the record, we ARE just friends. Lol. And I was falling asleep. And he was falling asleep on me. And then Matt disappeared. Like just left without saying he was leaving. Apparently he was getting jealous of Joe. That made me laugh. I’d been kinda ignoring him anyway, cos he was being a tool. Bout a lot of stuff. And I didn’t know whether it was just me being intolerant, but nah, Beka happened to bring it up and I was like phew, it wasn’t just me suddenly going off him. Haha. But yeah. Don’t really think it’s gonna go anywhere anymore. Funny, I think the last time I posted about him it was the complete opposite!! I don’t care tbh. I have great friends and that’s all I need.
*that was actually the second kind of downbuzz. While it was just Beka, Joe and I, we had had one of those drunken heart to hearts. Found out something really amazing. And all I can say is, if you care about someone, let them know, be there for them, don’t give up on them, a casual little txt can make ALL the difference. Hehe warm fuzzies. And no, you don’t get to find out what I found out. Lol. Just know, that I’m amazing!
Anyway Joe was first to sleep, cause he had to get up super early to go do work. I stayed up with Beka until Andrew came over, then I went to sleep.
Woke up when Joe left. Couldn’t get back to sleep because I felt drunk and sick. Then when I did go back to sleep I was waking up every half hour cause it felt too late to be sleeping. Got up about twelve for toast and started cleaning up a bit. Beka was hungover as and I was laughing at her and glad I didn’t feel that bad. We ended up back in bed asleep then woke up to her alarm at 3pm. I was like euuggggh nooo delayed hangover! I felt cruddy. And I had work in two hours. Luckily by the time I dropped Beka to work, got myself a smoothie, had some v, and drove to Hillcrest I was feeling a little better. I was about half an hour early, so I listened to music in my car untill I saw other people showing up. And by then I was feeling fine. Luckily. Haha.
I got to do all sorts at the work thing. From taking orders to making pizza to cooking wedges and taking the pizzas from the oven, cutting them and boxing them. Making pizza was scary. Cutting and boxing was fun. Yelling out the orders for people to collect them was challenging. I need to be louder. Lol. I have a cool hat and tshirt, which i don’t think I’ve mentioned yet. The tshirt says My Life Is Hell on the back. And the hat is one of the cool styled caps not a baseball cap like I worried it may have been! Yus. So having not completely hated it, and not been quietly told I sucked and they don’t want me (lol) I’m probably starting work sometime on Monday. Wheee.
I filled my roster availiability out according to this logic: I have schoolwork, and I’d rather do that in the mornings, so I only want to work one or two mornings during the week. I have tutoring wednesday so can’t work until 7pm (the next shift start) and that also gives me a day off to study more. Then there was I didn’t want to work late on a thursday or start till the afternoon on friday.. and a similar thing for the rest of the weekend. Wonder if you can guess why? Lol. So should find out today when I start monday, or I have to ring the manager monday morning.
I’m poor, so I can’t wait for payday. I need to find out how much I can earn with my student allowance, before i need to tell them… Lol might go look at that now..Okay, I can earn up to $192.01 a week before my payments are affected. Sweeet.
I’m getting Beka’s spare house key when she gets it off her mum, yay! And I’m moving in as soon as I can afford a new bed. Hahaha. My bed is too big. Though I’m semi-living there anyway. Even more so now that I left just about everything i took there on friday there. I was too lazy to find it all and put it in the car and may have been going back there after work anyway. I finished way earlier than I thought though so just decided to go home. Get my stuff next time lol
Anyways, I think I’m all rambled out. I need to go clean up the kitchen.
OH NO WAIT. Daylight savings. Sucks. But apparently there is a onecard wine sale on to celebrate longer days. Hahaha. So this must mean DS is so we can drink longer/more. Keennn.
Oops
And so finally I have posted stuff on my blog that I shouldn’t have. Haha. I had wondered, but then thought it would be ok, but all good, it wasn’t, so some quick editing, which ended up being making the entire offending posts private so that I can edit them later, seeing as I don’t need to delete the whole post, and I’m in the clear, without any asskicking *phew* Man, what they say about the internet is true. Anyone can read it. Live and learn!
It’s cold. And it’s raining. And it’s thursday.
Have a good day!
Tv Show Tears
Well today has been the day for shitty sad tv shows.
First Belle died on Home and Away. I, I kid you not, was almost crying. I got all teary eyed and sniffly but stopped short of actually crying. It was just lucky that it wasn’t actually all that sad the way she died. I mean yes, it was sad, but it wasn’t as dramatic as I thought it would have been.
Then on ER it was about the chief’s son dying, and this other little girl almost dying. And it was just pure aw. I didn’t cry though. I just felt sad.
I know, you’re probably thinking, cmon it’s just a tv show. But the fact of the matter is, that while it is just a tv show, that type of stuff is happening all the time in reality, to people you don’t know, and even people you do. It’s hard not to develop a connection, no, bond is the word I’m looking for, a bond with a tv show character, if you’re regularly watching that show, because you see them go through the good and the bad, you get angry when they do stupid stuff and happy when they do something they should’ve done 10 episodes ago. Okay, when I say you, it probably only applies to me. Haha I should really stop watching so much shit tv.
I find that I don’t usually cry in movies. Unless it is really sad. Wait no, I cried in Cinderalla Story for some reason. And that one with Hilary Duff. And the animated one about the bear. And King Kong. And Homeward Bound. Okay. So maybe I do cry in movies. What was my point? I’m not sure… And with books, especially the ones which create such an atmosphere that you feel like you are there in the story, watching all of the events unfold, books especially, because you create the sound of their voice and the image of their expressions and actions in your mind, can be real tearjerkers I’ve found.
The point of this post was lost sometime ago when I realised I needed to write on my dad’s birthday card and make a voucher. We bought him a car stereo and my gift to him is helping him to install it.
I need to go to sleep now. Getting up early tomorrow.
Poor blog is suffering from my busy life at the moment. I promise a decent post in the near future!! *huggles blog*
team meeting at Hell Pizza tomorrow. should find out lots of stuff re: employment.
am going to purchase percussion type instruments, including finger cymbals, for my gypsy character to play at st wolfgangs. and for me OOC to amuse myself with.. xD
Employment. Success.
So this will be quick because my eyes hate me right now and I need to sleep some more. My body doesn’t appreciate going to sleep at 4.30am and waking up at 12.30pm apparently. But twas fun. And i’ll elaborate later.
Manager from Hell Pizza called today while I was at Beka’s. Luckily I’d charged my phone up! Anyway, he’s pretty much told me that I have a job at the new store. There is a team meeting on tuesday, then there is a trial/training evening on saturday night. Store opens 28 september. So pretty much I’ll probably start work next week sometime. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
And yeah.
Night night.
